2012 and new resolutions

I did this last year, so I thought it would be nice to do it again this year.

My old resolutions: ☆ click ☆

2012

January - Moving to the studio.

Februari - Had a nice photoshoot.

March - Coming out to my partner.

April - My public coming-out.

May - Intake at Vumc. (genderclinic)

June - Went to a great meet-up.

July - Participated a lolita fashion show.

August - A new 'change'.

September - Start volunteering.

October - Having a great day with a close friend.

November - Went to another great meet-up.

December - 6 year anniversary and moving to the new apartment.

What a year 2012 has been. Alot of things happend, big and small.

Most important thing was my coming-out. It gave me such a big relief when I was finally able to tell this after so many years. I felt great and so loved to see how positive everyone was after I did. It really helped me. Coming out towards my parents and family was also nerve recking but so far I haven't heard anything negative. I had my intake at the genderclinic in Amsterdam and am still on the waitinglist for diagnostics. 2013 will be the big year to make some progress for the transition, since diagnostics will then begin. I'm nervous and excited for this to begin!

We found a place to live at the beginning of January (after looking for a long time), and finally lived together. Though it was great to have our own space, it was also very small. Now, in december we have found a bigger livingspace. We have now moved completely to the apartment and I couldn't be more happier!

I went to several lovely lolita meet-ups, some with my loved one. And they all were great. I always love spending time with my dear (frilly) friends. Also participated the lolita fashionshow again, and I was very pleased with my outfit and look that day. (I do love old school lolita alot!)

Compared to 2011, this year has been better for me healthwise. No collapsed lungs! I did had that accident with the electric stairs, but besides that I feel very lucky not having to spend any time in the hospital.

In 2011 one of my revolutions was start vlogging. I thought it was a big step for me, because I'm not good with words at all, especially in front of a camera. But, in 2012 I did made a few vlog video's, and I hope to make more in the upcoming year. And I hope I will improve with my speach, because I know it's not the greatest. I do hope everyone was able to understand me, even though English is not my motherlanguage. For me making vlogs is a exercise to practice my talking, and I never would have thought to actually make a video where I'm talking in.

Resolutions for 2013

☆ Photography ☆

It's a never ending resolution for me, because I also want to improve. Which is a good thing, because you're never to old to learn and improve. I do think I have made some improvements last year, so I hope I will improve some more the upcoming year and gain more experience with my camera. I made photo's of some of my friends and it felt amazing to do something I really love and involve friends with it. I hope to be able to shoot some more with friends, and already have several things in mind, and some a bit planned.  And I also want to learn analog photography. I need to look into this subject alot more, but I'm really interested in this. And I hope to purchase a lovely polaroid camera because I love making polaroids!

  ☆ Excercise, get healthy ☆

I love junk food much more than I should be, so I really want to cut that down alot. Luckily we don't eat that much of junk food. Since I normally always cook our dinners, most of what we eat is pretty healthy. But I think there's always room for improvement, so, I want to eat less meat by cooking more vegetarian meals. With eating more healthier, I also need to work out more. I worked out, but lately I haven't been doing because I lack the discipline to put myself into it. But, I will do my best to excersize more from now on, because I want to have some muscles (especially on the arms, and try to broaden my shoulders a bit. We live on the 3rd floor, so I will have plenty of excersize in daily life already with all those stairs. Poor legs, lol! I'm planning to exercise at least 3 times a week.

☆ Improve ☆

 I need to be more creative with the pieces of lolita clothing that I already own. Because I can't really buy a new dress at the moment. (moving is expensive when needing to purchase new things). Oh how I yearn for a new piece! Maybe I can try making something myself, now I have the space for a sewing machine. (now all I need is some sewing skills).

 ☆ Tattoo ☆

I still want to have more tattoos. I have several ones in my mind that I would love to get, and hopefully I'm able to have atleast one in 2013. So it's time to save up money for that! Besides tattoos I'm also thinking of getting a new piercing. I can't seem to get it out of my mind but I want to overthink it a bit more.

☆ Reading, writing ☆
I love books, and I still have plenty of books that I need to read. But last year I haven't read as many books as I wanted to read. So, hopefully this year I'm able to play less videogames and pick up a good book more often. And, I also want to give it a try to write something myself. I love writing little texts, but I hope to write a full story about anything I want. I don't want to start the NaNoWriMo project upcoming year because I fear I won't be able to keep up with the deadline, so I want to make it a resolution to write something myself, not having to worry about a deadline. And by doing so I hope I will be able to express myself better in words.

☆ Go to concerts ☆
 I always enjoy going to concerts, and when I visited  2 concerts this past year I realised how much I missed it. It feels amazing to see your beloved artist in the flesh, hearing and seeing them perform right in front of you. There's something magical about concerts and I love the atmosphere. ♥ I hope I can atleast attend one concert!

☆ Learn something new ☆
 I want to learn something new, but I don't know what I want to learn yet. Something completely different. I was thinking of learning a new language. This would be quite the challenge because I think I'm not so good with learning any new language. I was thinking of learning Finnish, because I love the language and it sounds magical to me. ♥ But I also wish I was able to speak Spanish. So, I hope I can learn some basics of these languages.

☆ Be happy, be myself ☆
This year I have already made a change to become more like myself. And I hope the upcoming year will become even better for me. It will be the year I can fully be myself. That will also mean that I'll be much more happier. I'm already happy with how things are at the moment, so next year will hopefully be better.

☆ Friends ☆
I want to see my friends more often. Unfortunantly not everyone lives as close as I wish, so I don't get to see them very often. I think it's a shame that travelling with train is pretty expensive. Hopefully I'm able to spend more time with them, because they are all so very amazing and fun to hang out with. ♥

So these are my resolutions for upcoming year.

Soon I will close the door called 2012, and open a new one.

I hope 2013 will become an fantastic year ♥

What are your resolutions, if you have any?